Engaged =)

November 20, 2010 was the best day of my life!

When i woke up that morning i was quite angry with Drew. He made me think that he didnt have anything planned for our big date that night except dinner at Magianos...so i was under the impression that I would end up planning the whole night and that was not gonna fly with me. I ended up really ticking him off and when i met him at sonic he told he that he had had a plan for that night for the past 3 weeks. Oops! I felt extremely bad. Afterward i went to target to meet my sister and somehow she ended up dragging me to the nail salon begging that we get french manicures. Even this gesture didnt make me think twice about what was going to happen. (Oh p.s my sister knew about what was going to happen that night. though she made me think that we were only going to a movie). When we got home Linds helped me get dressed and do my hair all fancy! Im so glad she was involved in making this night so special. Drew came to pick me up around 6 because we had reservations at 7. He came over with the most beautiful pink roses i have ever seen! (I am going to keep them forever btw!). We ate dinner at Magianos! It was delicious! At the end of dinner he informs me that we were going to the Parthanon to take pictures and walk around. And so we did. We were hanging out by the parthanon when he grabs my hand and says "Lets dance". So we slowed danced for a few minutes while he whispered sweet things to me. Then we decided to go so i turned to head toward the car and i notice that he wasnt behind me. I felt a little tap on my shoulder and when i turned back around he had the ring box out! It shocked me so much that all i could say over and over again was O MY GOODNESS! He got down on one knee and asked me to marry him! I SAID YES! Obviously. The ring is absolutely perfect! I love it! Its been two weeks since the proposal and i still will sometimes just stare at its beauty! Back to the story. When i got back in the car i immediately called my family! We went by to visit them too. I am so glad they are 100% behind us in our decision. I am also glad that my future in laws are supportive too! We went to visit them after seeing my family! I loved his moms reaction! She is so sweet! Im so lucky to have a future mother in law like her! Overall it was by far the best day of my life! We havent set a date yet but we plan on getting married December 2011. I cannot wait to be Mrs. Lauren Whitfield!

love love love.

LT------> soon to be LW.

im lovin it =)

seeing as my last blog wasnt that happy i think i should start over. well its been awhile since i last blogged and its definitely because i am so busy these days! i work 3 days a week and school/internship 2 days a week. then when i am free i am obviously spending my time with Drew and my friends/family! its been a great semester and i am so glad i decided to stick it out by staying in school. its hard to believe that the first half of the semester is over! it has flown by! i found out that i will for sure graduate next fall 2011! that makes me soooo happy! i am also getting really excited about my internship this summer too. haha definitely a different attitude than i had just a few months ago. its funny how i went from hating school and not caring to really enjoying school and excited about getting a degree! anyways, lindsey comes home thursday after being away at college for 9 weeks! i cant wait to see her!

so yeah. life is great for me! im loving it all!

love love love.

LT

o hey welcome back

you cant BS a BSer.

i am sick of all this.

2011 needs to hurry up.

what a happy blog.

lauren.

"Are you hiding secrets, from me? Is there more to this life that I can't see? What will I find out over time? Waiting for the moment to arrive"

but she got a tan and i got a sunburn

Hello! Welp this is the last week of summer. I cant believe school will be starting a week from today! It really flew by! Im ready for it though. I gotta powerthrough it in order to be done by christmas 2011. Its been a great few weeks since i last wrote here! Been spending most of my time with my best friend DW. Oh and the boys turned 1 on saturday! YAY! I also got a fabulous new SLR camera! Still trying to figure it all out still but i love taking pics with it!

Anyways besides working im trying to take it easy this week. Today i spent most of the day at the pool with Sobe!

LT

loving my life =D

just for now

got my huuurrr done today. not sure how i feel about it. my family loves it. actually thats an understatement. my dad applauded me and said that i dont look like an alien anymore. whatever that means. haha. my mom and sister freaked out too. but you know though, hair is hair. the color will come out eventually. or i can fix it if i decide that i hate it. it honestly doesnt look all that different to me anyways.

so i met the most interesting old woman at the hair place today. she was full of the most random stories that went on for what seemed like ages. i barely got 2 words in. but i didnt mind. she kept me entertained. especially the story about how she got bit by a brown recluse spider on her boob. yep. not joking. i thought they were like super poisonous though? hmmm who knows. LOL

its been a good week so far. a ton better than the week before. im so glad i dont feel all depressed anymore. thats a relief. ha. saturday night me and dw went to the fair. it was fun! and sunday after taking charley to the park we went floating down the harpeth again. haha floating fail #2. lets review: 2/1/2 hours of floating. spilling our drink 2 minutes in. spider infested, low hanging tree. climbing an embankment. trekking through a horse farm. discovering that LT has major issues dealing with direction, time, and distance. PRICELESS. there are some fun things that money cant buy. im still laughing about it all. i know im gonna get made fun of for awhile, but thats ok. gotta love adventures. =D

im still reading eat pray love. ive decided its overall a great book, but there are some parts that seem to really drag on. all of my favorite parts of the book are the parts where she it feels like she is talking to me. parts that literally scream out "hey la this is meant for you. take it and learn from it." i had one of those moments yesterday. it was so...whats the word im looking for? enlightening? maybe thats it. i literally laughed out loud and thought to myself, o dang that is so true, and so dead on... anyways...

ahh school starts 3 weeks from today.

the twins turn 1 next week!

LT

"It's that time of year. Leave all our hopelessnesses aside (if just for a little while). Tears stop right here. I know we've all had a bumpy ride (I’m secretly on your side)"

new angle

day 2 (getting happier and not letting my mood affect anyone anymore).

yesterday was a good day! ok semi good day but better night! the boys were easy and didnt put up a fight when i put them to bed, which was a relief for me. so i put on my favorite UT sweatpants (thanks dw!) and got comfy on the couch and finished "Charlie St. Cloud". let me just say that it was such a wonderful book! even the ending was a happy one! im so thankful it didnt turn out to be some sappy and sad love story! it was the kind of book with adventure and romance that made you never want to put it down but at the same time you wanted to stop and savor every minute of it because you knew it would eventually come to an end. i cant wait to see the movie. but judging from past experiences i bet i will like the book better. i really think that DW will like it! maybe this weekend we can go see it!

at borders today i found a new book that i think i will love just as much. since i seem to be reading books with major motion films to go along with it i chose the book "Eat Pray Love". so far-just like the last book i read- i am already 7 chapters in.

yay for good book finds!

o and yay for the people who are coming to fix our washer/dryer! i can finally start washing the dirty clothes 'mountain' that has been pilling up in the corner of my room for weeks now!

i think i may go to sonic in a bit and enjoy happy hour while reading my new book.

tonight i get to hang out with my best friend. possibly gettin some krispy kreme? who knows.

im really liking this whole live your life and be happy attitude thing. its working well for me. lets hope i can continue this way. =)

hahahahahahhaahahahahahah gahhhh i love old pictures. seriously my day just got made. i found old pics from my 21st birthday (not to mention the crap ton of hilarious videos we made), blakes party pics (AKA jimmys 'revenge' pics), summer ohhh 9 pics anddddd the first day i moved to the boro pics! i literally just laughed out loud for a good 10 minutes. i love laughing that hard. wow! im so glad i stumbled upon these. good timesss. i wish everyone could have seen how char char was looking at me while i was laughing. he had this look of "what in the world is wrong with her" which made me laugh even harder.

thank the good lord for laughter. what would i do without it?

LT

"what in the world are you doing?... im talking to my twin brother justin bobby"

.bl-ah.

i wish i was on the beach right now.

i wish everyone (including myself) could be happy.

i wish summer would never end. (ok the heat can go)

I wish a lot of things. haha.

i fully intend on having a better week because im tired of going to bed and waking up miserable.

LT

"its amazing what you can hide behind a smile"

race the moon

yeah yeah im a nerd.

i heart novels. like for real. i especially love getting lost in the story.

at the moment i am reading "Charlie St. Cloud" by Ben Sherwood.

ive been reading it for about an hour now and im already 6 chapters in. needless to say i really like it. ha.

wonder if i can convince the boyfriend to take me to see the movie?!? please please please!!!!

got off work early today. praying baby reed's doctor visit went ok.

LT

"dive for dreams, and live by love" -E.E Cummings

2 blessings= happiness

always find the positive in everything.

blessings. gotta love them. =D

business minor? perhaps.

love love love. its the best feeling in the world.

immmaaaa a lucky girl. yup. i sure am.

LT

"you make it easier when life gets hard"

dont wanna crash

the worst part about having a good dream is that you gotta wake up eventually. its always such a bummer when your having a dream that is so good and it feels real, only to be woken back up to reality. i had one of those last night. haha.

working all week long this week. gotta make that money!

its been an interesting past few days. some good. some bad.

im starting to realize a lot about myself and seeing where i need to change some things. But most importantly im starting to realize that i cant do it alone. I need God to help me. I know deep inside that once i really open up my heart and listen that i will hear what He has to say. Hearing God talk back is so indescribable. I am on my knees with my hands lifted up asking Him for help and guidance.

i would go for a run to clear my head but its lightning outside. fabulous.

i would read but i cant concentrate.

i would love to go to lala and dream away but im far from being tired.

hmmm...what shall i do?

i guess praying would be a good start.

help.

Love love loveity love

LT

"cant set my hopes too high cause every hello ends with a goodbye"

"how do you feel about practical jokes?"

So apparently more than just one person reads my blog! HOORAY! Quick shout out to my Gran (PRAISE THE LORRRDDD ;) ) and Mom! haha.

You know its quite unfortunate when i have so much to write down in this blog but when i get on to do it i completely forget everything i was going to say. Im 22 and already loosing my memory. That could be bad sign for things to come. HAHA Jk.

This week the Whitfields have all been on vacation in FLA. Well, except Dw. So i have taken this opportunity to show off my cooking skills to Drew. Last night was night 1 and it went quite successful. I even cooked something i had never cooked before! Alfredo! YUMM! I was a little nervous at how it would turn out but it was very good for my first time! YAY ME! Tonight im not to sure what we are going to cook. Maybe salmon?

"Is there a horse in your apartment?... No thats just my wifes laughter". ha

Can i just say too that Arrested Development is my new favorite show! Its so flippin funny! Me and DW made to season 2 already! Mom broke the news that its been cancelled though....thats a bummer.

School starts soon. Well sorta soon. But i find myself stuck on what i want to do when i graduate. I have absolutely no clue, no idea, no nothing of what career field i want to take. Im almost a senior, and shouldnt i know that already?? Yikes. Maybe i am in the wrong major. Maybe CDFS is a BS degree. AHHH!!! I gotta get that figured out. LIKE ASAP! HELP!

O yes! I almost forgot! Me and DW went biking sunday and i LOVED it! I am going searching for a bike right now! YAY for being a cute biking couple! =D

Sad news: My camera died. =(

Is it may yet? ;) hehe.

I guess when it comes down to it I have nothing to worry or complain about. Im loving my life and DW and my family and well everything in it for that matter! Thank you Lord =D

love. LOvE. lOve

LT

"all you need is love. love is all you need"

bloggity blog

so its thursday. the 'ha you got one more day left till the weekend' teaser. its been a chill week. not a whole lot happing going on. just work and hanging out with my handsome man DW! I cant wait for the weekend though! Spending all my time with Dw! YAY for Dewie and Lewie time! My favorite way to spend my time is with him!

You know, me and internal alarm clock have a love/hate relationship! Its great for work and school when i tell my head that i have to be up at a certain time! Thats a upgrade! The downside is that sometimes when i wake up at a certain time in the AM i do the same for days on end. Now that sucks. This past few weeks its been around 3:45 that i wake up and it usually takes an hour to fall back asleep. Ughh not cool.

haha this is random. so im sitting here watching "I didnt know i was pregnant" and im really thinking that this show should be called "I knew i was pregnant but i was in denial and didnt want to tell anyone". I just dont see how you cant know that another human being is growing inside of you. weird.

school starts next month. im actually looking forward to starting this year. im dead set and determined to do good this year. i gotta pull up my GPA. im hoping that living at home and having DW to study with will be enough to help me get through this school slump i was on last year. i can do it. i can pull it up! plus i gotta another motivation next may to get me through this year too! ;)

welp thats all i got today. cant wait for saturday =D

love love

LT

"Won't you come with me tonight, where moonlight drifts into your eyes. I just want one little kiss when we get high up on the ridge"

who's bad?

just another day in the life of LT.

work was fun today! I cant believe that next month the boys will be 1 years old! =D they can say LaLa now! which is super adorable! ah i seriously love my job!

so me and DW saw Michael Jackson last night at Crockett Park. haha. Ok not really the REAL Mj but from far away the guy could def pass for him! i has the best time dancing the night away to Thriller, Billy Jean, and Beat it with my dewie love!

going to the farm last weekend was super fun! im so glad DW got to come! me and dad were super impressed at how he just jumped in and started feeding the cows like he had done it for years! and he sure did look mighty cute driving that tractor too! haha.

imaaa happy girl! yes i am.

Love love

LT

"no ones gonna save you from the beast about to strike...THRILLER"

*fireworks flying whenever we're together*

july 2nd=epic girls night

july 3rd=eventful. =D

july 4th= Had a fun day on the 4th with my DW! We went downtown for a bit and quickly realized that it wasnt our scene. HaHa made for some good laughs though! So instead we got our favorite meal and had a lovely picnic (our first picnic to be exact) at Crockett Park! Later on his parents came and sat with us! It was super fun hanging out with them! I really enjoyed the family time! I noticed that i am more relaxed and comfortable around them now which is great! One of my favorite parts of the night was when Mrs.Whifield, DW, and I danced to the YMCA! It was sooo funny!

life is great! nothing to complain about. cant wait for next year though ;)

love love love

LT

"light it up. likes its dynamite"

o so true =)

People will tell you that this kind of love will fade
That bein in love like this is only a phase
But baby after all this time ain't nothin changed
All you gotta do is look at me that way

And there ya go
Makin me fall in love again
Oh and I gotta tell ya
Theres nothin better
Than you and me together
Workin on forever
Everday with you is always somethin new
You've only gotta be yourself and there ya go
Makin me fall in love again

Baby sometimes you can say the craziest things
I love how you don't care what nobody thinks
Your highly original totally untypical
Never change
All I gotta do is look at your smilin face

And there ya go
Makin me fall in love again
There ya go
Makin me fall in love again

Your my sunshine, your my rain
Sure feels good to know you feel the same

And i gotta tell ya
There's nothin better
Than you and me together
Workin on forever
Everyday with you is always somethin new
You've only gotta be yourself and there ya go
Makin me fall in love again

make it rain

long time no blog!

great news! i NEVER have to take another math class EVER! thank you to mr tyler who pulled some strings for me.

today is charleys birthday! 2 years old! i can hardly believe it.

crank callers. classic. i just love getting the infamous "unknown" caller who calls then hangs up whenever i answer.
church camp was super fun! minus getting dehydrated and dw's accident! Oh and minus the heat! It was super hot this year! I have never appreciated the air conditioning more! I had a blast being a counselor with Bethany, Ms Jessica, and Ms Bridgette! BTW I was the only counselor who got caught during capture the counselor. Way to go LT.

Happy 10 month Birthday to my sweet boys Wyatt and Reed! I cant believe how big they are getting! My job sure does wear me out now that they are getting bigger! Still lovin it though!

you know whats nerve racking? calling your future mother in law and asking her to lunch. why is that? she is as sweet as they come.... i did it and it wasnt bad at all. Next thursday we are going to lunch! =)

Praying hard for my Great Aunt Mildred. She is terribly sick and not doing good. She is like my 2nd grandmother to me, lindsey, and my cousin Tara.

My diet has been going well. Ive been running more and eating healthier. I lost a few pounds and have been doing good at keeping it off! I can even start to feel my abs muscles!

life is great! im so thankful at how things are so going so wonderfully at the moment!

Thank You Lord! =)

LT

"my beds too big for just me"

no rain. all smiles.

Its been a fun Memorial Day! Daddy grilled out and Nanny and DW came over to join! After a filling lunch consisting of steak, chicken, twice baked potatoes, rice, and baked beans, DW and I headed over to Baskin Robbins for some yummy ice cream! NOM NOM! For most of the afternoon DW and I hiked a trail at Radnor Lake! It was a fun adventure! DW was the nature spotter winner. He saw so many cool animals while we were out! Including an Owl, a baby fawn, and a turtle! Way to go DW! LOL. Not sure what we have in store for tonight though. I hope we get some frozen yogurt ;) Hopefully the rain will hold off.

You know what i discovered last night? How horrible of a communicator i am! I hate that i revert back to 6 year old with my communication skills. I tend to get pissed off, shut down, and then run. I really am going to work on it. I dont want this tiny complication to be the demise of my relationship. I really need to be more confident in my thoughts and not overthink everything i want to say. This old habit needs to die hard! Im really sorry and embarrassed at how i over-reacted last night. I fully intend to be able to make sure that i do better! I promise.

love love love

LT

"I can be anything that I, anything that I see. And I am in love with a boy...I can do anything I want to, I can do anything my heart tells me to do"

rain drops. smily face.

I had a great day! I spent the morning being lazy by watching tv and painting my nails. This afternoon i finally got to have lunch and go shopping with Tiff TIff! It was fun and quite a successful shopping trip as well! Im so blessed to have such a wonderful friend! We have been best friends since i was in 6th grade where we met at Camp Ney-a-ti! I still cant believe its been that long and that we are still super close!

DW completed his first triatholon sprint today with his Dad! Im so proud of him! I cant wait to do one with him! For dinner we went to our favorite Jim Nachos then took Charley to Radnor Lake! It was fun! =) I cant wait for monday because we are gonna go hiking somewhere for Memorial Day! I love adventures with him! There are the best!

Tomorrow is church and the college class starts up tomorrow! Hopefully it will be a success. Afterward me and jess jess are gonna hit up the pool!

The rain is here. Blah i hope it clears up by tomorrow though. The sound of it will probably put me to sleep here in a bit!

Let it be known here on this blog (that no one really reads btw) that i am going on a strict diet. I really want to loose my belly and i have to start now! I really want to start eating better and exercising more! So yeah... gotta stick with it. DW is gonna be my personal trainer! He can help me get into shape! I am gonna have to give up starbucks and jim nachos for awhile but it will be worth it!

nighty night. im tired.

im so blessed =)

love love love

LT

"First time I kissed you I lost my legs. Bring that beat back to me again"

lazy me

long day. work was great! tiring but great! the boys got to "swim" in the blow up pool i spent all morning blowing up! it was worth it though. they were just too flippin cute! i loved every minute of it! i just kept thinking about how i cant wait till its my kids i get to take swimming! i cant wait to be a mom! i mean i can wait... LOL you know what i mean. Seriously though i really feel like God put me on this earth to be a mother! That sounds silly but i dont care. Ive always said that if there was a major called "mommy" i would pass with flying colors. But ill settle for the nanny job right now! =)

You know if i didnt have the ability to write or type out my feelings i would be having a mental breakdown right now.

Anyways. I really need to work on my patience. Even when im tired. I promise im gonna try harder.

Lazy night tonight. Now my computer works im gonna watch a movie. LOL.

THANKS HOLLY FOR COMING OVER AND MAKING ME FEEL BETTER!!! HOLA FO LIFE.

love love love

LT

"if you come around again then i will take the chain from off the door"

the sweet life

holy cow its been so long since my last post!

so i have officially moved in to my house and my room is finished! i love being home!

work has been fabulous! The boys are crawling and getting into everything! Its tiring but i love it! Starbucks has become my morning ritual to help me get through the day! You know your a regular when they know what you want and you make friends with the other regulars! HAHA. [skinny iced caramel mac extra sugarfree caramel with a cinnamon swirl coffee cake]

Me and DW have been doing fabulous! Its been a fun time being able to hang out and see him everyday! Today we went swimming and then took Charley to sonic! =)...in the ghetto ;)

Church Camp this year is gonna be so fun! Me and Bethany are councilors together! YAY!

Panic Attacks have started up again. Yay my life :/ Sunday morning i had a horrible one. It took everything out of me. I was exhausted all day. LOL thanks to all the mothers who tried to drug me up. [fyi i never took any of those pills bc its ILLEGAL. no zanx for me] I should worry less. Like a lot of things its a work in progress.

I miss my bff holly. We havent talked much or seen each other since school got out. Bummer.

Hey on a positive note stalker has left me alone! Hopefully this will be permanent.

Hanging out with DW tonight! I wonder if i will come home to Lindsey and Chris working out in the street again?!?

love love love.

lt

"I'm not a trick you play, I ride a different way. I'm not a mistake, I'm not a fake, It's set in my DNA.Don't change me."

welp. i got nothing.

welp i had a lot i wanted to say but at the moment words are failing me.

summer officially starts for me on friday when DW comes home. It still hasnt sunk in that its summer yet.

TOMs are my new favorite shoes.

Stalkers are not fun.

I am glad i am home safe with my loving family.

My baby sister graduates this saturday! WOW!

Jeremy graduated yesterday! It was a fun day with the family and friends!

Happy Mothers day!!

i love you DW =)

love LT

"I love you, I want you, I need you in my life.Can't you see what you mean to me.Baby come hold me tight.I miss you, wanna kiss you"

hello summer =)

ITS HERE ITS HERE!!

Summer. I have missed you a lot.

Finals....welp. im just thankful its over. I am in no rush to check my grades.

Enough about school. ITS OVER.

Last night i spent the night with Holly and Courtney... O man we stayed up being silly till 2 am.

O that cost $15...

Thank goodness for starbucks. It got me through the day for sure. I packed up most of my stuff from my house and then had lunch with the girls! Then i wasted 6 hours of my life in the library preparing for math. blahh. Needless to say, i am flippin exhausted!

love.

LT

"School's out and the nights roll in. Man, just like a long lost friend. You ain't seen in a while and can't help but smile. And it's two bare feet on the dashboard young love and an old Ford. Cheap shades and a tattoo and a Yoo-Hoo bottle on the floorboard. Perfect song on the radio,sing along 'cause it's one we know. It's a smile, it's a kiss. It's a sip of wine, it's summertime.Sweet summertime"

you better go and get your armor

a new version of "People are Crazy" by Billy Currington.

-god is great. sweet tea is good. and ex's are crazy-

grrrrr to the max.

school is almost over. (one day and two exams till SUMMER)

reuniting with KP tomorrow for coffee. =)

Dw comes home in 10 days for good.

Davidson Co was in a State of Emergency the other day because of the floods.

Still praying for all the people affected by the flood.

Got my first summer read. "The Choice" by Nicholas Sparks!

Time for a run or something.

blahh.

love love love :(

LT

"Don't try to explain your mind.I know what's happening here...Can't swallow our pride,neither of us wanna raise that flag...I guess you better go and get your armor "

forgive and FORGET.

First off, My best friends heart was broken yesterday. To the person who did: You broker her heart. Your lucky i didnt see you because i would have broken your face. Holly: You deserve so much better. You are gonna find someone a 1080378476573 better than him. Like i said, take it from me, the THIRD TIMES A CHARM!! Thats all i have to say about that.

"I wanna forgive you, and i wanna FORGET you"- lc

Yesterday would have been a great day for Me and Holly's reality tv show (if we had one). Anyways... I worked all day and thought i lost my phone but i found it under Reed when we got home. LOL. That was an adventure.

Last night Holly and i had some BFF time eating some BlueCoast and watching Sex and the City!

I met up with Cassidy today and we actually studied for our nutrition final! LOL YAY us!

Tiffany took me to dinner tonight to Nachos! NOM NOM! It was fun to catch up with her!

DW comes home tomorrow so my weekend will be spent with him =)

thats all.

LT

"I found a skeleton under your bed. How could you sell me out for a kid like that?..We'll fall out again

Don't ever wanna see you again. Push all my feelings aside. I'll be alright. Won't let your face keep me up all night. Don't wanna start talking again,cause I'll go crazy again. Why do this to myself?"

i am loved =)

What a fabulous birthday weekend i just had! Friday i got to spend all night with my love! We had a delicious dinner at PF Changs, got some ice cream, and spent some time with his family at Jacksons game! It was fun! Saturday my daddy and i made spaghetti for my family and DW! NOM NOM NOM! On sunday i was quite sad all day because i thought DW was leaving to go back to Knoxville. So we took Charley to the park where we just happened to run into Marin Erat (from the Preds). LOL. That was pretty cool! I went home and did math to get DW leaving off my mind. You know i gotta be extremely sad if i was doing math homework! haha. Holly picked me up and the first thing she did was hand me a piece of paper that said "if you havent guessed by now, we arent just going to dinner". HAHA. She sent me all over Bwood with different clues with a new article of clothing at each place. I looked ridiculous! The last clue lead me to Mazatlans where DW was waiting! I was so happy to see him! Ask Holly, i kept going on and on about how i was super bummed that he couldnt spend my birthday with me! So to Holly: Thank you for the best surprise ever! And thank you for spending all that time planning my scavenger hunt! You are the greatest!

Yesterday (my real birthday), I worked all day! DW did get to stop by and have lunch with me, which was great! I was bummed that he had to for real go back to school. Good think i get to see him on friday! Last night Me, Holly, Andy, Zach, Brandy, and Meg went to Cheddars to celebrate! I am so glad my loyal and true friends wanted to come and celebrate with me! (well minus DW but he couldnt help it). Thanks again you guys!

Thank goodness that i am done with classes for the summer!! I am so relieved!

To my other so called "friends"- All i can say is thanks. Thanks for showing me who my real friends. You said you had to "choose"... well you have chosen. I see how it is now.

love LT

"You find out who your friends are. Somebody's gonna drop everything,run out and crank up their car,hit the gas, get there fast. Never stop to think 'what's in it for me?' or 'it's way too far'.They just show on up with their big old heart. You find out who your friends are"

.my bad.

wow. i have crap ton of stuff to do by thursday. this is when i regret being a procrastinator. I will be spending my birthday weekend trying to get caught up.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME =/

love, LT

"Nobody loves you when you're 23. I'm still more amused by TV shows. What the hell is ADD?. My friends say I should act my age. What's my age again?"

when you whisper you want this

Lately I'm alright
And lately I'm not scared
I've figured out
That what you do to me feels like
I'm floating on air
I don't need to know right now
All I know is I believe
In the very thing that got us here
And now I can't leave

Say anything, but say what you mean
'cause I'm caught in suspension

Now,
I'm wanting this for sure
And I'll beg for nothing more
I'll plan all day and drive all night
You'll love what's in store
I can't seem to stop this now
Even if it's not so clear
And I'll take what I can get
If you want me here (If you want me here)

Say anything, but say what you mean.
When you whisper you want this
Your eyes tell the same
We are gaining speed
I can barely breathe
'cause I'm caught in suspension

It's enough for me to get excited
It's enough for me to feel...woooooah ooooh oh oh oh

Say anything, but say what you mean
When you whisper you want this(when you whisper you want this)
Your eyes tell the same

drenched in vanilla twilight

Lets go Preds!!!

Sitting here watching the game with my Daddy and Charlie! We are winning at the moment!

Good day.

Dont feek that great at the moment =/

I actually did homework today. Shocker.

Knoxvegas was fun!

"SPEAKA-PHONE"

"Im a horse"

I love us. (dw and lt i mean)

The Owl City concert was fabulous!

My birthday weekend is approaching!

I cant wait to make spaghetti with my family and for DW to hang out with us!

love love love.

LT

"You're the bird and I'm the worm and it's plain to see, that we were meant to be"

im just living, laughing and loving.

Im just chilling...

listening to music....

enjoying this beautiful day...

the office has got to be one of the funniest shows on TV...

Dw im not going anywhere...ever..

everything is always better when we are together...

insecurities have got to be some of the worst feelings one can feel...

Laughter is the greatest medicine...

Owl City is monday! Cant wait to have some BFF time with Hollzzzyyy.....

I am gonna be 22...weird...

3 weeks till Summer...

love

LT

"Don't say a word just come over and lie here with me. Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see. I want you so bad, I'll go back on the things I believed. There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me"

your just somebody that i used to know

I had tender feelings that you made hard
But it's your heart, not mine, that's scarred
So when I go home, I'll be happy to go
You're just somebody that I used to know

You don't need my help anymore
It's all now to you, there ain't no before
Now that you're big enough to run your own show
You're just somebody that I used to know

I watched you deal in a dying day
And throw a living past away
So you can be sure that you're in control
You're just somebody that I used to know

I know you don't think you did me wrong
And I can't stay this mad for long
Keeping a hold of what you just let go
You're just somebody that I used to know

ignorance is your new best friend

You know, some people are really just stupid now-a-days. Apparently, coming out and saying "leave me alone", never responding to their texts, and blocking them (and their ENTIRE family) on facebook, doesnt mean jack squat anymore. I really need to know how to block phone numbers. I am so livid at this moment. To the person who i am referring to: I do NOT care or even i could have gone without ever knowing that you are living in the Boro nor do i care that you are finally doing something with your life besides partying by going to MTSU in the fall. TAKE A FREAKING HINT. Otherwise i will send people to make you take that hint:... Im sorry that was hateful but i am sick and tired of not being respected. This person ALWAYS had a problem with giving me the respect i deserved. They may have been able to get away with it back then but i am standing up for myself to say that enough is enough.

Anyways... Lets start over. Well its only a few more hours till i get to visit my love DW! I am so ready for it to be summer so we dont have to keep saying goodbye. HOORAY!

1 week till Owl CIty!

10 days till the LT & AB Birthday celebration

13 days till i am 22!

14 days till the last day of school

23 days till SUMMER

love,

LT

"The same tricks that, that once fooled me they won't get you anywhere. I'm not the same kid from your memory. Well, now I can fend for myself"

"YOUR GONNA BREAK IT"

Wow its been awhile since i have written a blog! A lot has happened in the past few days! Lets recap! Since the last time i wrote...

I took a little vacation to Knoxville to see DW! It was a fun weekend! We got to visit Worlds Fair Park and Market Square. We got to witness the Red Bull chariot race! It was fun to watch and the MTSU chariot won! YAY! LOL. UT made it to the Elite 8 and then lost last sunday by 1. It was sad. Oh well. GO VOLS! It was a super fun weekend overall!

Last week was a rough week, school-wise. I found out that i cant graduate till 2012 due to the fact that i transferred twice and because of the two internships that i just found out about that total 400 hours. Needless to say i was super stressed all week. I am not excited about this at all. I contemplated just getting my associates degree at Columbia State, but i think i am gonna tough it out. It is a plus that i will be graduating with all my friends and Dw. Ughh i just need a summer break to re-coup so i can get my focus back in check. Or some adderall... haha jk jk.

This weekend was also fun and just what i needed! Dw came home and we had a great weekend taking Charlie to the park, watching a movie and just hanging out being us! It was so fun! We seriously can being doing nothing but have still have a blast at the same time! I love it!

I cant wait for summer so we can stop having to say goodbye. I will see him in a few weeks when i come to visit Knoxville. Hooray!

This week is just another week full of school and work. Nothing special. I do hope to have a bff HOLA date to see the Last song with HH. Other than that, nothing to interesting happing!

Happy Easter!

much love,

LT

"Yea when my world is falling apart, When there's no light to break up the dark.That's when I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore and I can't find my way home anymore that's when I look at you.
When I look At You I see forgiveness. I see the truth. You love me for who I am, like the stars hold the moon. Right there where they belong and I know I'm not alone"

just a typical tuesday

Hooray! Im only one workday away from seeing the love of my life! I cant wait!

It has been a fabulous day! The sun came out and it felt wonderful outside! School was school and i didnt do that great on my Child Pysch test but i dont care! I spent the afternoon with HH. We had a typical tuesday afternoon full of Camino noms, sex and the city, dairy queen and shopping. I get home and have a lovely surprise waiting for me! NIKKI! It was so nice to get caught up with her! We always just pick up where we left off! I am so honored to say that she asked me to be one of her bridesmaids! I am so excited to be in her wedding! I love you NIkki!

Just been packing my stuff and getting ready to head to bed in a few! What a great day! The rest of this week and weekend will be fabulous and wonderful as well! i can already tell! Good NIght=)

love from an very excited,,

LT

"Yeah an empty wallet doesn't seem half bad when you're living the dream"

crazies

Just got home from spending the afternoon with my aunt Diana and Wendy! It was a lot of fun! I didnt realize how fun my aunt was! Me and Wendy were a little shocked! We went and saw the movie "The Crazies". haha. The acting was bad and the plot was a little predictable but we all screamed and were pretty scared at some parts. It was a good movie overall. Afterward my aunt suggested we movie hop. Haha yes she really did. We tried a few movies but couldnt really find any that we liked to watch. Most of them we got up and left within 30 seconds of it starting. We went to Raffertys for dessert! NOM NOM NOM! Haha the waiter asked if me and Wendy were sisters. My aunt then preceded to say "No, thats my niece and thats my boyfriends girlfriend". What she meant to say was that she was her son's girlfriend. We all laughed for a good 20 minutes about that. I had tears in my eyes i was laughing so hard. It was a fun filled afternoon!

HH and i purchased our Owl City tickets today!! HOORAY! I am so flipping excited! I love Owl City! Its gonna be a great concert!

Only 2/1/2 days left till i am reunited with Dw! I cant wait! =)

I guess i should attempt to do some studying. I am still thinking a lot about what i want to do school-wise. We shall see. I do want to jump to any conclusions and do something rash so i am gonna finish out this semester and see what i want to do.

Much love,

LT

"The silence isn't so bad til I look at my hands and feel sad, cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly"

with you is where i wanna be

I tried. I really did. I studied for a good 15 minutes and then gave up. I swear i was never this way till last semester. I dont know what happened. I think i honestly just realized that i dont want to to be a career woman and that i dont need a degree for what i want to do. (I want to be a full time nanny and then start my own family). I can make just as much if not more money being a Nanny then doing a job with a degree. So for that reason i dont care anymore.Thats horrible i know. I am wasting money but my parents and whole family for that matter would flip out if i quit school. Yes i realize that if something were to happen to my husband and i needed to work that i would need a good job but being a Nanny is a great way to make money. Plus I am wasting thousands of dollars for a piece of paper that i do not intend to use. Awesome.I want to quit. Lets just be honest here. I am in school to please my family. But i am getting tired of that. I dont know what should i do. Some helpful thoughts from my readers would be nice. =)

Other thoughts: So remember that wall i mentioned in earlier blogs? Yes well that wall has been torn down. For that i am truly happy! All my fears and all my insecurities are gone. Vanished. Over. I am truly excited and happy about the relationship i am in right now. I dont care who knows it. I want the world to know that i found the one. The one i want to spend the rest of my life with. The one i want to be with till i die. I guess you can say our relationship has been 9 years in the making. Some might even say that i a rushing things when i say that i know he is the one. But when you know, you know. I have and always will love him. He makes me the happiest girl in the world and He truly amazes me each and every day.

If you didnt know, i am a really insecure person when it comes to looks. But for the first time EVER i actually feel beautiful without my make-up on. I love that he makes me feel that way. He has seen me at my worst and he still thinks and actually makes me BELIEVE that i am the most beautiful girl in the world. That is huge in my book. No one has ever made me feel this way.

God knew what he was doing when He put us both through the heartbreaks and the many tears shed from our past relationships. I am glad that i put all my trust in Him. I knew all along that he had the man of my dreams out there. Its just funny that what i was looking for all this time was right there in front of me.

He is and forever will be my best friend.

HH told me after the first time she met him that there is not better match for me then Dw! She loves us together. She then proceeded to tell me that she would kill me if i ruined it. Not him ruining it, but Me. Haha. Dont worry. I wont ruin this. I am not going anywhere.

Sorry Dw if this way too much info to be putting on my blog. I cant help it. I am just so dang crazy about you and so happy i couldnt help but share it with everyone. With all that said Dw, dont break my heart. No pressure ok. haha im kidding. Para Siempre Mi Amor.

Its rainy here in the Boro today. I miss the sunshine. I plan on trying to study more tonight and then me and Wendy are hanging out later!

love,

LT

"In your darkest hours, Well I love you still. I have and I always will"

SUNSHINE and SMILES

The weekend is here! Hooray! Its been fun so far! Friday the Bc went to BWW's for some yummy wings! Then we all hung out at Tutt's apartment all night! The girls took a ice cream run too! I have missed hanging out with everyone! It was so nice to all be reunited!

Yesterday was the perfect day. The only thing missing from it was DW. The sun was shinning and it felt wonderful outside! I purchased a new book and a Snapple Peach Tea! I came home to see my sister who had just come home from Honduras and i had a letter waiting for me from DW! I teared up it was so perfect! I know i say this a lot but he is seriously the best boyfriend ever! I am the luckiest. =). I took Lindsey to meet my mom at Davids Bridal to try on her Jr/Sr dress! Grace and Allison were there too! I still cant get past how fast they are growing up! They will always be 12 years old in my eyes! LOL. Pucketts with some of the crew was last night! It was so fun! The songwritters were very entertaining and so were all the crazy drunk people around us. haha. This one guy was sooooo drunk and he would randomly shout out "HAM AND CHEESEEEE" during the show. I was gonna hang out with the Quad Squad afterward but i was too sleepy. I got to Skype DW for a little bit which was nice!

Today i have been cleaning like a maniac. I do plan on studying for a little bit too. I am purposely ignoring the sounds of the procrastination train. Tonight everyone is going to Silverados to line dance. LOL. I have never done it before so it should be interesting. I was a dancer so surely it wont be that hard to learn.

Shootin and Christ Church tomorrow then i get to sleep in on Monday since i dont have to work!

Only 4 more days till im back in my DW's arms! I can hardly wait! I am so pumped for next weekend!

Much love from a happy,

LT

"I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you... I am the luckiest"

Dear Drama, i left HS 3 years ago. Go away. love Lt

What a day it has been. Thank goodness that i am a week away from Knoxville and seeing DW! Classes were good. I am so dreading my Child Psych test. It is gonna be so hard. Luckily i will have all weekend and all monday to study. (It will be a miracle if i do study though. I can hear the procrastination train a coming...).

I just had lunch and ice cream with HH. It was nice =). Tonight the BC is going to BWW's then hanging out at Tuts apartment. I am super excited about that! I havent hung out with everyone in long time! I miss them.

Well, all hell broke loose today. I was reminded today how much i dont miss high school and how much i really hate drama. It is so sad how some people can revert back to those days. Seriously, i left high school 3 years ago. Its time to grow up. I also would like to say that if you want to apologize for this crap you can do it to our faces and not over a blog. You said you wanted to work this out like an adult so start acting like one. Thats all i am gonna say about that. I am over it.

HH says it best. "Dont put all your trust and faith in one basket. Unless that basket is labeled Jesus".

Much love

LT

"And we are so fragile, and our cracking bones make noise, and we are just, breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys"